Things are flighty and all over the place. Fear has crept into my work and life that at times feels like cement weights on my hands.
With what time, energy, and breath I have, I’ve been putting time into working on a new contract that I just signed. It’s getting close to a point where I feel I can rest soon and begin to redirect focus from other people’s work to my own work.
Small victories feel like winning the gold, however. I’m still able to live and go. It’s not as easy as it once was.
I don’t feel like the powerhouse I used to be, but the fact that I’m still going makes me happy.
Some nights and mornings it’s hard to focus on my work while the world burns, but I force myself to because all the fires are why I want to write the stories that I do. I want to show a world that could be made from the ashes. I want to show growth through struggle and POC characters being stars in their own right. I want to show the power of community over the tyrants of fear.
I want to show the world a better place through change, growth, and a little bit of weird.
Through all of this, I keep forgetting and remembering to touch base with myself. To ask how I am doing. Things are going on in my career and life that are major and monumental for me. It’s hard to directly describe it, but things are happening for me that I’ve been working so hard for.
I’ve also set up an e-newsletter for people to keep up to date with where I’m publishing and what I’ve got going on.
I hope as you read this you to feel the weight of what I speak and know that there is a need for your words and stories. I need them. You need them. And someone you have never met needs them the most.
Aigner Loren Wilson is a queer Black SFWA, HWA, and Codex writer. Her work has appeared in Arsenika, Terraform, Rue Morgue, and more. She was listed on the honors list for the Otherwise Fellowship award for 2019. She also writes or edits for Strange Horizons, Nightlight Horror Podcast, Oly Arts, Discover Pods, and more.