Four Scrapped Girls

Sometimes it is hard to find the words to describe the complexities of girlhood, but here is my offering, nonetheless.

Photo by Greg Rakozy on Unsplash

There were cigarette burns in her eyes
and she thought, for a second,
she was alone.
She felt the tug of your hair
under her arm and rolled
into the scent
of summer at a winter window.
The frozen cats of discontent
scratched at her
door for warmth and you purred
at her head, pulling her back
to her cold room.
She shut her eyes and reached
for the sun and for a second
she wasn’t alone.

Beneath these jackets
of warmth and protection
lies a compartment,
but noticeable in the right light.
Inside this compartment,
beneath jackets,
behind falsely locked doors,
resting above a drawer of wears
Will live a mouse.

Alone in her walk,
She struts quickly down 4th
in a constant battle with the rain
but the sun is shining.
So, maybe it’s the rain in her head.
She wishes to be the ones
who dance on their deluges.

The smoke was drifting up her face,
past her nose.
Her eyes shut delicately,
only to open a moment later
with an eyebrow raised;
as if asking
“What happened last night?”
Her mouth is smiling
or is that a snarl.
She keeps her hat low
as if she’s afraid
if it somehow fell off
her brain would follow.
Her hair flows,
not in any style,
more of a
resemblance of style

Aigner Loren Wilson is a queer Black SFWA, HWA, and Codex writer. Her work has appeared in Arsenika, Terraform, Rue Morgue, and more. She was listed on the honors list for the Otherwise Fellowship award for 2019. She also writes or edits for Strange Horizons, Nightlight Horror Podcast, Oly Arts, Discover Pods, and more.

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